im now officially a senior.
boo.yah.
also means my 2
nd year of cosmo is over...one year left...boy am i gunna miss it!
we seriously have so much fun, and im really kinda scared to go out in the real world and make my own decisions about stuff...im probably going to be calling mrs. stein all the time asking what to do on clients!
nd year of cosmo is over...one year left...boy am i gunna miss it!we seriously have so much fun, and im really kinda scared to go out in the real world and make my own decisions about stuff...im probably going to be calling mrs. stein all the time asking what to do on clients!
haha. us 4 second year, ki and sarah were saying how we feel we need to go for four years and not just three....its kinda nerve
racking pretending like you know what youre doing, but you really dont. you just pray it turns out even, or her hair doesnt fall out. i mean, so far its worked for me! but not sure how much longer that'll keep on! (fyi-im not saying that i dont know what im doing most the time, it just seems like numerous times im caught in that situation of unsure-ness!) But now that im officially a senior and i only have one more year im really starting to realize how things are seriously going to change a lot. i mean less then a year i'll be taking my state boards for cosmo to start working....i'll be out of school. for good. will i have enough money for a car to get to my job? will i finally get my license? (hahahaha) probably still gunna be living with the 'rents. but are we still going to live here? i also feel like im being pulled in all sort of different directions. my heart will say one way, my mind says another. i get stressed out about not knowing whats going to be happening with me in the future....
racking pretending like you know what youre doing, but you really dont. you just pray it turns out even, or her hair doesnt fall out. i mean, so far its worked for me! but not sure how much longer that'll keep on! (fyi-im not saying that i dont know what im doing most the time, it just seems like numerous times im caught in that situation of unsure-ness!) But now that im officially a senior and i only have one more year im really starting to realize how things are seriously going to change a lot. i mean less then a year i'll be taking my state boards for cosmo to start working....i'll be out of school. for good. will i have enough money for a car to get to my job? will i finally get my license? (hahahaha) probably still gunna be living with the 'rents. but are we still going to live here? i also feel like im being pulled in all sort of different directions. my heart will say one way, my mind says another. i get stressed out about not knowing whats going to be happening with me in the future....but according to my buddy James..."you dont even know what tomorrow brings-what your life will be! For you are a bit of smoke that appears for a little while, then vanishes. Instead you should say, 'if the LORD wills, we will live and do this or that.' (James 14-15 HCSB)
I just find it hard to let go and try my best to not worry about it. give it to God. i know things will work out how they are suppose to. i trust that i'll end up being happy, and i will get the most out of life. its just getting started and not knowing what im suppose to do exactly. ahhhhhhhhh.
anyway, tomorrow i gotta wake up bright and early at...eh...7:15ish
some guy is coming to fix my leaking wall thats making my floor wet everytime theres a heavy rain...so i need to get ready and get out...then im off with tanya, kelsey and ploy to go to presque isle then shopping...then tie-dying? idk anymore! but im honestly not tired. probably becuase im looking at this bright light? hahaalright. bed time.
***so excited for these next days/weeks/months ive been having a hard time sleeping im so excited!***
haha. well, sorta.
(sorta 'bout the sleeping situation, not about the super excitment)
night<3
song of the night- free fallin' by john mayer
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